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Quote in mind: "You are who you surround yourself with"

Oh get your mind out of the gutter...

I'm talking about the hot twins and their cute cousin..!! [otherwise known as Tahjabellah]

Allow me to introduce them...

I am the eldest of the hot twins, TaJane' T'Leon Y'Vette [i'll put my middle names out there lol..theirs? not so much]

The youngest of the hot twins, La'Mayah D. Hodges

The cute cousin, Sarah A. Arceneaux <-- mah bad, Harris :)

We're family <3

back to the story...

I love my girlz..!!

No matter what/who comes or goes, I can always depend on them...we've been through it...our friendships have been tested in some [less than conventional ways] lmfao && we don't spend 1/2 as much time together as we used to...but it's a bond that can't be broken...If i need them,  they're there...[they help me rub my leather/no homo/so IJC(inside joke central)]

LMFAO  OMG we have sooooooo many inside jokes...a lifetime's worth I tell ya...

Individual Reviews?? Kay..!!

La'Mayah D. Hodges--> Tinky/My Hot Twin <-- [I fuckxing love my sister!! buh no homo/nd I'm still hardcore..!!] 8^D

I love you more than anything!! you're my right hand man..!! real talk. IDK what I would do without you and everybody's right, blood couldn't make us any closer...We've been through hell and back and hell and back...but the most important part is that we went through it together. Tears and Laughter galore..!! But we did it together.

You are judgemental and bitchy and you always have to be right..!! You're mean as fuckx nd sometimes go 2 hard but WTFuckx would I do with an understanding, peace loving, submissive and easy-going chick to my right?? 2LAG (yeah that was to annoy you)

LMFuckxinAO she's one of the only people in this effin world that can talk to me lyk she crazy with little to no consequences [she still don't want it though]  

We didn't start off as sisterz though. We began as...uh...friends? lol and idk WTfuckx happened but one day, we woke up, and were inseperable. [couldnt shake you if I wanted to] 

We're the type of best friends that graduated from "best-friendship" a looooooong asz time ago. We're the type that look at people stupid when they suggest that we're not really sisters.

She knows ish about me that even she won't say...[silent understanding type ish]...Even when I front...I know she knows whats really going on LOL why even bother?? My G Mentality LMFuckxinAO 

"God made us best friends because he knew our parents couldn't handle us being sisters" -aint that the truth

The point is..you're my sister, my right hand man, my #1 ridah...they don't want it..!! && can't nothin change it

Sarah A. Arceneaux Harris -->Surah/Our Cute Cousin

Okay now this relationship was most definitely tested. LMfuckxingAO. Crazzy....yet and still she's on mah far right...right nxt to Tink. 

LOL..As soon as she calls with a problem, I'm up and ready to run to save her -->always got me tryna play SuperTaj..But I know she'd do the same (actually she has)

When we started: She was the new girl and I was Taj lol [which implies that my friendly asz just started talking to her..!! LMfuckxingAO aha ha] && we meshed

We just clicked. IDK really what to even say about Sarah. She's just always been...there. No matter what I need or who's pissed me off...she's always been there to listen. &&I love her for it.

The point it...you're my family, my far right hand man, the cap to our bottle of laughs lol...complete the circle?? yeah you do..!!

The Family -->The Hot Twins and the Cute Cousin

Thick as thieves..!! No matter what, we ride and we ride hard...the rest of the world doesn't need to understand us..[in fact, we usually prefer that they didn't LMfuckxingAO]

Quote Replay: "You are who you surround yourself with"

...we just fit...

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No matter what life brings our way, who we meet, or what we do...I know that I'll always have IJC with My Hot Twin and our Cute Cousin.

**PIC IS AN EXTREME THROWBACK LMFuckxingAO** 

I woke up to my dad packing his suit cases for Afghanistan. I yet, have shown any emotion that he's leaving. I probably will next week because, I just don't want my daddy to leave me :( Who knows, maybe the relationship with my mother will gain some sort of strength since the people we are in love with both leave us.

I don't think anyone possibly understands me more than he does. Who is he? HE is the greatest gift given in God's graces. I have kept my heart locked up for so long and no matter how happy I was, I was still guarded. Without any consideration of this beautiful person who stayed patiently strong of how he felt. I know better now. Once, after I finally finished getting ready to go out, I walked into my room and noticed how he stared at me. Not staring at how I dolled up I was, but me. I could never thank him enough for lighting up my heart. The moments we shared are stored in my mind forever, but could never compare to the happiness his love has brought me. Yes we rushed into our relationship too quickly, yes we are still young - if our love is as strong as we feel, no one could ever take him away from me and I to him. No one could ever walk into my life and replace you. In my dictionary, "extraordinary" defines our relationship .. he is my 'I do,' he is my heart, he is my forever love, he is you - Patrick. If I ever let you read this just know that you are in my heart forever and I always think about and miss you. Don't ever be worried about us, my voice will be the last thing you hear at night and my words will be your first smile in the morning. I'm with you, forever and always. I promise.

Plain White T's - "Hold On"

It's over! :)

okay that didn't come out right...its not that i'm ecstatic that my relationship didn't last...but I'm glad it's over.

it: the wondering, the arguments, the guessing, the tears, the BULL

It's time that we let go. Many would say that our relationship failed. lol I disagree. Just because something did not last as long as it could have, does not mean that it failed.

Our relationship was a success. I honestly believe that we were together for the time alotted by God. I learned from him what I needed to and he made it to where he was supposed to make it..all in that time.

even though it  was driving me el psycho loco, our relationship was amazing. The connection we had was incomparable. We were "us". and I loved it! I loved every minute that we spent together...even the arguments :) [everyone likes to make up :)]

But our time has come. It's over...

I'm not sure if I really mean this or not, but I forgive you for what you did to me. We both made plenty of mistakes, but we grew from them. This is just the icing on the cake Mario. This isn't one of those things that we can just shove into a closet and pray it dies...this is one of those stones that sits in the middle of the road, forcing us to each take another route, move in another direction. And i'm okay with that. I'm not okay with the way thinigs happened, what girl would be? (I'm only human)

I wish you the best. In everything you attempt I pray you succeed. But I cant just forgive and forget this one. I don't think I'm supposed to. C when it's truly time for something to end, there are signs. I saw them a long time ago. I saw them clear as day. But because TaJane' wanted to stay, I ignored every single one. So they started coming harder and faster...soon i couldn't hold on like I'd been trying to. I was forcing something that should not have been. And so are you. Let's stop. Please let's just stop.

This is what's best for both of us. You'll go off to college and meet body that'll make you forget my name lol. It may seem big now but soon we'll both be over it. We'll both find our places in this world and settle there. [Well, I'll never settle :) Too much to do in this world] But wherever this life takes us, as crazy as it may seem that I'd be saying it, we can't go there together. It's not meant to be.

(to be continued...gotta get back to my job )-->gotta love lunch breaks

Does anyone remember this word anymore? It's almost like we forget to appreciate the people who bring you the most liveliness in your life.

Well, I appreciate you.
Bryan, Leizell, Patrick, Kaily, Tayla, Ryan, Harlington, Johnathan, Zaid, Ilene, Stacy, etc.
Just, anyone who's been there and that I've been there for.

All for tonight.

P.S. All the stuff I used to write about Miguel don't compare to what I write about Patrick. I guess its a different
kind of love between the two. oOoOps (:
P.S.S. I love Patrick (: I love talking about our lives together, it makes me feel worth your happiness in your future. <3

I have been trapped at home for days, it was time I took a few hour escape away from here to hang out with Leizell and Tayla. What did we do you ask? Well, what do friends ever really do? What do we talk about? Everything. It doesn't matter how long its been since you've spend time together, the friendship doesn't change when you're living life together. Bluntly, I hate walking the strip, I'm too lazy. I only enjoy when I'm with a BIG group of people. As we walked we made fun of people, we took pictures, laughed, and just captured more memories for our brain book.

I do want change, I want something different. I'm used to moving all over the world and now I've been trapped here for almost a decade in February. I can't complain, I met some beautiful people and friendships stronger than most, but what else is out there? These thoughts were running through my mind all night until I looked back and saw Tayla and Leizell, how they couldn't careless how dumb they looked in the middle of the pathway, they looked, I don't know, free. I think that's what attracts so many people to Las Vegas, the freedom to look like a fool and know that residents only enjoy their stupidity. We saw people walk alone on the strip; was it the same? Is she having fun? Why is he here alone? If I walked through this big city alone, I know that the lights wouldn't shine the same. So, when I leave, I realized that the fire of Vegas, lies with my bests.

I've considered college upstate as we all know - not for him. But for their Medical program which is more profound than UNLV's. Or Suffolk again. How nice would it be to travel outside this economically unstable country to travel back home to Spain? God, that is my dream school. I'll talk to mommy about it, it's less expensive a year and plus, I love Europe. (:

"I fall for you more everyday. I wish we could always be together. I love you" -ptjn<3
I know I always mention him. But it hit me that I've never glowed like I do when I think or speak of him. "Is this my anti-love Cristina? Cristina .. believing in forever? NO! Don't listen to him! He's probably said that before! COME BACK!" That maybe true, but my favorite place in the entire world is laying next to him, so relaxed, so peaceful. There is really no one else I could find more perfect for me. Mid-way through summer - Time can only tell how our strong our relationship really is. Time will flies by so quickly - Then poof! He's gone. No matter how teary my eyes get, I'm going to deal with it. I lose two things at once; my heart and my daddy, who has to build massive bombs in Afghanistan, but my mom will be alone too. Maybe I'll learn from her strength. After all, distance makes the heart grow fonder<3

P.S. I heard "Come together" by Madonna at work on sunday. And at the tuxedo desk you hear one little girl with her loud voice singing word by word. I miss Zaid. Yes, I refer to him as Zaid. I don't miss my teacher, I miss my friend. :[

All over again? Could this be possible? My re-occurring depression seems to have return. I don't understand why it continues to try and pull me down. It won't happen. 'Well Cristina, why are you depressed then?' If I knew I wouldn't feel this way now would I?

I guess it all started when my mother and I were watching my graduation - Oh yeah, by the way, I graduated with honors, a magnet title, and other things I've accomplished. But that never matters, right? Anyway, I was fought with, put down, and hurt on MY graduation day. So this beautiful ceremony only looks gray. As we were watching she yelled at the stupidest case that I cut myself off the camera at the end. Oh, I'm sorry, want me to put my cap&gown on again so I can re-do it? I walked away, I choose not to hear pointless blaghity-blah-blah's. She mentioned the letter that I wrote in appreciation; thanks for that push, I'm growing up, I don't need you to tell me what to do because I've learned from you, I love yous, etc. She said that it "broke her heart." "meant nothing." YOU ALWAYS COMPLAIN HOW I DON'T APPRECIATE ANYONE OR ANYTHING, BUT WHEN I DO ITS NOT ENOUGH. Please, take a knife to my back and stab me in the same spot repeatdly, I doubt that will hurt more than the feeling that I make my family ashamed.

It's not her who makes me feel so awful, its the exchange of words. Selfish, stupid, ugly, disrespectful, inconsiderate, careless, and useless are words that fly in my ears and plaster through my vision. So that's all I see when I look at myself. I'll just slap a smile on so no one will ask what's wrong. I think that if you have to be asked that, you show weakness. I am not weak or fragile, just sensitive.

I really should not be feeling like this. I graduated, college ready. I'm still usually happy. Bryan, Leizell, John, Tayla, Kaily, Ryan, and Harlington all put a smile on my face and make my tummy hurt from laughing too hard. And then Patrick, is there anything more to explain about him? A thought of him keeps all the pain away, like medicine. Future Doctors, Weird, IROOOOOOOOOOOOOONY. I guess I always seem to find some light in the dark. That's what I'll continue to do. Maybe one day I'll squash the depression bug. As for now, he keeps on biting.

I'm swallowing my tears, I'm fine.
I'm really fine.

Tomorrow is truly, the final day of high school. I notice that everyone is so excited to graduate, waiting to walk, hands bleed for that diploma, so on. Am I the only one who just doesn't care? I haven't had a struggle through education, I never asked nor received recognition for hard work, bluntly, I'm not the only one graduating. Thousands of kids graduate tomorrow, not just me. Other people have and will graduate. BIG DEAL. A high school diploma doesn't give you a career, if anything that anyone should be excited about is getting through college or graduate school - with that to show you at least can become something useful in this society. I am not proud of myself, I don't feel my fire burning for tomorrow. Congrats to all of 2008 members, I hope you aren't as pessimistic as I.

I won't miss that many people, frankly, I deleted people that I choose to never have a conversation with in my life again. Even if they become famous, I could careless. Just because you are something now, doesn't mean people won't forget who you were yesterday. I deleted most of the underclassmen, I think they're all senseless. Geeze, could I be anymore blah? I'm on my period. I'm so annoyed. I'll be in white while I bleed.

Oh sweet summer, I excited I am for the. The memories that will be made give me chills. I'm ready to end the last three months of adolescence. I want to be a doctor already. I have everything I could ask for, I don't know what else I could want.

I love waking up everyday thinking of Patrick. I don't think anyone understands how strongly attached I've become. Thankfully, unlike other couples, we have lives besides ourselves. Together, we are extraordinary. I never been happier with anyone since I began dating three years ago, and I don't want to be happy with anyone else unless its him.

I miss Zaid :(

I thought this was funny, I remember writing this:

There once was a girl named Crissy
At times she can be very pissy
Her spirit was higher than the sun
Which made life's adventures loads of fun
She was very pretty
But preffered to be witty
She has hopes and dreams
That are easy to be seen
But there is so much more,
She's the one we all search for.

CONFIDENCE BOOST (:
I'm throwing away all my high school papers :[